“Apostle St. Thomas” by El Greco
Other than being listed in a few lists of apostles, all that we know about the apostle Thomas comes from the Gospel of John. Thomas is a far more complex character than some of us may have realized. Thomas has forever been known as the “doubter,” but today we see something very different about him.
We know him as Thomas, but he was also known as Didymus, likely a Greek name. Interestingly, Didymus means “twin.” Maybe Thomas the apostle was a literal twin. That would explain the name. But as we read through John we will see, in three places, that Thomas truly is a twin within himself.
Today we see the apostles’ fear to return to anywhere in Judea (11:8). The Judaeans want to kill Jesus. Why would he give them another chance? When Jesus explains that Jesus is going to use the death of Lazarus to grow their faith, Thomas is the first apostle to respond:
“Let’s go too,” he said. “We may as well die with him.” (11:16b)
This is one side of the “twin.” The side who boldly launches off into peril. The one who is willing to risk life and limb. This may not be a Thomas we have always thought of.
On Thursday we will see Jesus proclaim that he is headed to his father’s house to prepare a place for them, but that he would be back to get them, though they know the way anyway. Thomas is quick to correct Jesus:
Actually, Master, we don’t know where you’re going, so how can we know the way? (14:5)
Notice though who it is that is most interested in knowing the way so as to follow Jesus. Thomas, once again. This man is gung-ho to follow.
“The Incredulity of Saint Thomas” by Caravaggio
Last, and most famously, it is days after Jesus’ resurrection. He has appeared to the apostles but Thomas was not there. When Thomas is told what he has missed, he is incredulous.
“Unless I see the mark of the nails in his hands,” replied Thomas, “and put my finger into the nail-marks, and put my hand into his side — I’m not going to believe!” (20:25b)
This is the other side of Thomas the Twin. He needs proof before he budges an inch. I’ll believe it when I see it. Is this doubt? Maybe so. Both an incredible faith regardless of cost and cautious doubt concerned with being duped are bound up in Didymus. He is both.
If we are honest with each other and ourselves, we are both too. There are days we launch out with immense faith sure all will be fine or that it won’t matter if it is not. Other days we hold back and need proof to take another step. We are Didymus too.
I love the last quote from the Bible attributed to Thomas. This is how he ends. Maybe he is ready rumble. Maybe he needs to investigate Jesus like a doctor. Regardless, Thomas ends with this statement. May we as well.
“My Lord,” replied Thomas, “and my God!” (20:28)
What did you see anew today?